Shooting star

Someone told me that i shouldnt be chasing after a shooting star when i said i want the sky.

Have you ever thought that one day you'll unexpectedly bump into someone and suddenly you just like the person?

Ive been waiting for a prince charming to appear and swept me off my feet unexpectedly. I know, im living in a fairy tale but i choose to keep on dreaming. Someday i'll have to wake up and tell myself there's no such things. If it really exist, probably it wont be me either.

"Lorna: Well, you're Prince Charming isn't coming to rescue you in a horse and carriage. That's not who you want. I mean, you're looking...you're looking for a man to be your partner. You could take on the world with." - Friends with benefits

See. There's really no prince charming is gonna come and rescue me from my lonely tower and yes, im looking for a man to be my partner - someone that i can take on the world with. But, who's the man? Ive been asking myself this for the longest time - it's a million dollar question.

Ive met a boy and he sticks out his hand and pull me in for a dance when i was at my shittest moment. That moment, im smitten by him - just in a snap of a finger. I never felt this way before and i really have a good feeling about him. However, im just like cinderella - when the clock strikes 12, everything back to reality. When you think finally there's a prince charming but reality just fall hard on you that no, he's actually someone that just wear a shiny amour and nothing else left inside. Where's the warm body and the heart - nil. It's just a ghost with a shiny amour.

Maybe i should wake up my idea and for once, face the fact that there's no fairy tales ever.

Friends with Benefits

Ok, i kinda tell myself that im not going to watch this movie friends with benefits because someone once told me it's a crappy show. But i watched it anyway - out of boredom.

So inside has some classic advice -

"Tommy: That never works, bro! She's a girl, sex always means more to them. Even if they don't admit it." - friends with benefits

So true enough, after i watched it, it just tell me that you can have a BFF (platonic friendship) but never a friend with benefits - Girls will still get hurt in the end no matter how much of a tough cookie she is.

Tommy did say something that i feel sweet as well:

"Tommy: It's not who you wanna spend Friday night with. It's who you wanna spend all day Saturday with." - friends with benefits

Yup, unfortunately guys usually take flight before the saturday or sunday can happen. Why does it always have to be like this - takes off. There's a scene in the movie that Jamie was dating with this guy and she has a 5 dates rules. Meaning she will only have sex with the date after they have 5 dates. And so, on the 5th dates, they sex. But guess what happen? The classic act happens again - the date take flight. Now tell me, what's the use of dating and dating and dating when in the end, the guy still leave after having sex, after taking what they want.

So what's the freaking problem now. To date or not to date. Dates dont guranteed you a man, a bf then what else will.

- Straight away and go up to the guy and tell him:"I love you and i want to be your gf?" - im pretty sure the guy will run away.

- Tell the guy that you are madly in love with him and beg him dont go?

- Tell the guy that it's either marriage or no more?

All aboves are craps. (please dont do it, we still have our diginity as a woman) But what i mean was, how to make sure that the guy dont take flight and dont treat you like just a sex partner? Im pretty sure no matter how experienced Jamie is that comes out with that 5 dates plan, she still get dumped.

Where's the simple courtship teenage love that i used to have, used to know and used to see.

In the name of love

Sometimes, just sometimes, girls just love to dig their own grave - in the name of love. I think that's what ive been doing lately. LOL.

Preference

Sunshine was telling me that probably we should just close our eyes and find someone that loves us more than we love them, if not we will be left on the shelf soon. (FYI, we are hitting 30s)

I told her:

It's not that we are demanding, it's because we are persistent.

It's not that we are fussy, it's because we are selective.

We know exactly what we want and we cant be like the other girls that accept come what may. We are constantly fighting with our fate to seek for what we really want.

it's a risk that we are taking on because what if the right one just wont appear? What if you actually missed the right one? (that wont really happen for now because we are single STILL) But be it or not, we chose this path, we chose to be persistent in what we want.

Happy Vday Mister

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this war
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Just when i least expect a msg from you, you appeared and send me a greeting that you never believed in. You said Valentine's day is a Hallmark gimmick but you still wished me happy valentine's day before hugging me to sleep. This year, there's no hugging yet there's a greeting that come unexpectedly.

Happy Vday young lady.

"I couldn't make you see it that I loved you more than you will ever know. A part of me died when I let you go."

Fated but not destinated

How true isnt it. Look at me, all i can do is to just type it here in a place where maybe not more than 10 peoples will even read it. All the whines, rants, emotions etc etc.

When your day are so bad, all you need is just a msg from the one you love, from the one that is the closest to your heart and everything will just automatically be fine. Everytime when i have the biggest challenge in my life, a surprise msg will just pop up.

It's late at night now and im supposed to be asleep. Yet msges from you keeps me awake from feeling tired. I want to be back at the time where your nose and mine were touching each other, our lips were kissing gently when we were asleep. I want to be in those sleeps that you will hug me like i'll run away in the middle of the night. I want to be awake by a kiss from you on my forehead and when i open my eyes, you are charming me with your biggest, brightest smile and greet me good morning. That was the sweetest moment ever when im with you.

There are things where we are fated to meet but not destinated to be together. But it's ok, at least we have happy moments before and that makes the journey counts. Be contented and thank god that we have met.

"And in other life I would make you stay. So I don't have to say you were the one that got away, The one that got away."