Don't want to erase it

Right. So I've been working for a week and I'm already mentally and physically drained. So tired.. Really tired.

As usual lying on my bed now, heart kinda ache a little..

I'm running out of time. I wouldn't want to explain what happen but I can only say that after September, I probably will be crying like a cry baby again. Because.. I won't have that kind of little happy moments and also the great intimacy anymore. Everyone ask me to cherish the time that I have left right now but.. somehow I don't even want to think about it.

I am afraid.

I'm afraid of that kind of departure feeling. I don't want the happiness to end. Can I wish for time to stay put as it was right now..

I'm afraid that no one will be that concern about me anymore.

I'm afraid that no one will show me all those indie movies or funny video clips anymore.

I'm afraid that no one will hug me to sleep tightly like I will sneak out in the middle of the night.

I'm really afraid..

But whatever it is, I believe ultimately I will have the strength to carry it on. Be strong minded Angie, you can do it.