Investigation

I had a strange dream.

Start of the scene -> I was on this guy's car together with another 3 persons. So he stopped at a bridge kinda place and I saw a very beautiful bird on the tree. It's like a Phoenix. The feathers were in yellowish gold in colour. So beautiful. Then this guy that was driving the car, appears to be my boss-to-be. We were on the way to the office. Apart from the bird, there's baboon too! And also quite a few mysterious looking insects, which I think they are beautiful too. (Even though they look scary)

So all of us walked up the bridge and start walking to the office. Guess who I saw in the office.. MY CURRENT BOSS. My first reaction.. HIDE! But she saw me and I was already hiding under the table!! She walked towards me and Im sooooo embarass! I managed to say:"Erm.. Hi.. Boss.. " and she just walked away. Busted.

The scene jump a little.. Now I'm at the office with my boss-to-be talking. He was sitting directly opposite of me and he gave me this very lovely smile. And I was actually feeling slightly happy. (I can feel it while I was sleeping!) Then the scene jumped a little, Jas came and we were preparing 10 glasses of drinks..

The scene jumped again and this time round, I was at a woman's place. She's pretty attractive and I fall for her.. We stayed together and I was pregnant. So both of us with 2 other persons (which seems like to be her mum and her bro) took a cab and wanted to go to the hospital. I was sitting in the front seat and i was confronting my gf that she dont care about me and not faithful. I even show her some evidences i have in my hp.

Then the scene jumped again. I was back to the office now and this time round it's only me and the boss-to-be. We were talking and he just constantly smile at me. The happy feeling is back again and suddenly i was koala-hugging him while he was sitting on the chair. I wasn't properly dressed. My t-shirt came up to my chest so my bra was exposed to his chest. (He's still in his shirt btw) And you know what he do.. he pulled my t-shirt down and hug me tight. This.. makes me smile happily while i was sleeping.

Weird huh. And i can rem it so well. I dunno what's wrong with me recently. Yes, finally i have stopped running in circles and probably now im searching for a direction. I met someone that managed to let me unconditionally be there for him even though im not being given a status, even though i know he will sleeps with someone else. I dont know what's wrong with me. I am silly, alot will say. I agree, fully agree that it's silly.

So what ive conclude from my dream..

Scene 1:
-I think i really fall for guys with nice smile. A feeling of sincerity and comfortable.
-Im thinking of resigning so maybe that's why i dreamt of my boss.

Scene 2:
-I think it's just purely means i miss Jas. Ive not went out with her for a long while!

Scene 3:
-I think it's a warning to me that do not fall in love with someone that's attractive. It shows how silly i am that even it's not right, i will still bear the kid for that fellow, i will still do everything. And at the end of the day, what i got was disappointment and heartache.
-It also means how insecure i am right now. Even though i know the someone is sleeping with others.. somehow it hurts. I just dont want to admit it but subconsciously.. it really does. I just turned a blind eye.

Scene 4:
-I think it just reflects that i am sick and tired of men that just want to sex me. Even though i was sorta half naked, but the boss-to-be just simply dont care and he even pulled my tees down and hug me even more tightly. This.. really means me feel happy. And i really can feel how happy i am while i was sleeping. This is what im looking for.

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