Soon.. 2011

*boo*

Well well, 2011 is coming in another 2 day time. 2010 has not been a good year for me. Absolutely not. Things happened and it's definately not a good thing for me to recap.

SO~ IM SO DAMN LOOKING FORWARD TO 2011!!

Here's some event that is going to take place in 2011:

Jan: My major makeup project.

Feb: CNY, start of my french class (Studying again, i know. =( ), Anny's wedding

March: HK

Apr: Bali

May: Mimi is due!! :D :D :D

June: -

July: -

Aug: My bday, my momma's bday, New York.

Sept: -

Oct: Halloween 2011

Nov: -

Dec: Xmas 2011 and Paris (probably only because i want a white xmas this time round!!)

I probably want to squeeze Phuket (Again i know), Langkawi, Koh Samui, Philippines (Boracay) in between those month that im not travelling. And also to do some minor renovation for my house~

So that's it. That's my 2011. As much as i want to travel, my leave doesnt seems to be enough. And of course moolah. I think i can consider myself lucky for being able to travel around. Definately i want to explore alot more countries~ Just keep on travelling. :)

*in a softer and like a mice voice*

I do also wish for love but provided the one that i like will like me. I absolutely do not need those one sided love.

Lastly, thank you Santa. For making my wish come true~ You have wrapped up 2010 in a very very nice way for me. Thank you Santa, i'll be a good girl! :D

"Merry Xmas to you and your family."

Miss Boo Boo

There's a few things i want to rant/whine and after that.. im gonna announce a good news! :D



1)
Everybody says that im a nice girl and stuff. Hmmm. Am i?

Sometimes i just wonder if i am really that nice or it's just lame excuse for themselves. I remembered my ex bf commented that im a good gf and stuff and i believed in it because it's true. I do shower him with all my tender loving care. Placing him as my first priority. I know, it doesnt sounds healthy because i should have love myself a little more but i guess this is me.

2)
Stupid Singpost is sucha lousy posting company. Sent a parcel on the 14th and wanted to check if the receiver has received it, guess what the operator told me.

"We are unable to track the item."

W-T-F

They say the item has been sent to Narita (ok, fair enough) but they cant confirm if the receiver has received it or not. Reason due to:

"No record in Japan Post Office."

W-T-F AGAIN

It's scaring me!! (because it's not my parcel and it's meant to be a xmas gift)

So i got slightly pissed and i asked the worst senario..

AL: "What if Japan lost my parcel. How are you all going to compensate me?"
Op: "The max amount for compensation is $68."

W-T-FFFFFF.

The parcel worth more than 68 moolah lah!!! I should have use DHL or whatever parcel posting services. Seriously, i dont know if i should trust Singpost anymore! *pissed*

"Dear Parcel, please be a good boy/girl and reach the Asai Family. If not, i think my head is gonna roll."

3)
My new hair cut sucks.

4)
Something is wrong with me. I actually miss someone that i just had a short encounter with. Probably because he deleted me away in Fb and hence im sorta bearing some grudges. But i will still wonder how is he and stuff. See~~ I just dont like this part of me. Everytime when i dont like someone, i will still wonder if they are doing well or not. Argh~ i guess i just need to have a heart of stone.


Alright, it's time. Some drum roll please.
*Drum roll*

SANTA LOVE ME!! I GOT THE DEAL THAT I WANNNNTTTTT!! Woot!!! Which means.. I WILL HAVE EXTRA MOOLAH!!

p/s: It's lotsa moolah! Yeah~!! Yeah~!! *Confetti in the air*

Im a happy kid now! :D

Xmas xmas.. Dont go away!

Finally i have some time blogging again. Has been a crazy dec anyway. Parties and gathering.. Non-stop.

So, Xmas has passed but i still have xmassss mooddd! That day i was having a xmas drink with om and i was asking how does people in Europe spend their christmas together~ And i found out that it was pretty interesting.

- Mum cooked good food.
- Have dinner together.
- Tell xmas stories to the younger ones.
- If someone want to perform an instrument or what, they can do so
- Exchange gift

Compare to singapore: Party and party and party. (Well of course there're definately other families celebrate the way like what om's family does)

I realised Xmas is getting more and more commercialised. People celebrating it without knowing what it was. Im not a Christian so my knowledge of Xmas is: Christian celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ.

I know it's definately more than that but to me, Xmas is about gathering. Gathering together and enjoy the food, having fun, appreciating the gift you get. I wouldnt say we should only gather during Xmas, but judging at the pace that we are living right now, it seems that festivals is the only time for us to really get together. Sad but true~

Anyway, i hope that all of you had a fantastic and awesome Xmas! And right now, let's look forward to 2011! Woot~! :D

Have a little Merry Xmas

Have a little Merry Xmas everyone!! Yup, time of the year has come again. This is the first Xmas I'm spending as a single girl!!

Am spending my Xmas with my girlies and it's good. Hope you all have a great time too! 2011 is coming, let's embrace it! :D


-Signing off, Athenlea

Heart stopped

Just witness something terrible.

- Someone jumped down infront of me.

Yes. This is how scary it is.

Went to have dinner with om and we saw it at Chinatown. I have never see anything like this before. My heart just literally stopped for awhile and it pumps faster than usual. It makes me feel like puking too. Way too much for me to handle.

Did I mention about giddyness? Yes, I feel giddy as well.

At that moment, how I wish I have someone to hold me tight and tell me:"Baby, it's ok.. It's ok." And I realised I have no one to do so.

But.

It makes me more independant because I have to tell myself that it's going to be fine, it is.

So, that's it. Telling yourself it's going to be fine isn't that hard at all. (ok, depends on the situation)

We walked down Chinatown and I saw a kid having his dinner fed by a maid. 1 min ago, I saw death, another min later, I saw a life, a future. This is how life is. No matter what happens, life still goes on.


-Signing off, Athenlea

旅行的意義

旅行的意義

你看過了許多美景 你看過了許多美女
你迷失在地圖上　每一道短暫的光陰
你品嚐了夜的巴黎 你踏過下雪的北京
你熟記書本裡　每一句你最愛的真理

卻說不出你愛我的原因 卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你動心 說不出離開的原因

你累計了許多飛行 你用心挑選紀念品
你搜集了地圖上　每一次的風和日麗
你擁抱熱情的島嶼 你埋葬記憶的土耳其
你流連電影裡美麗的不真實的場景

卻說不出你愛我的原因 卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心 說不出旅行的意義

勉強說出你為我寄出的每一封信 都是你離開的原因　你離開我
就是旅行的意義

Sometimes

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

This song just keep on playing in my head and till now too.



Time to see the beautiful thing. As usual, from one of my fav blog.


Ok, just her coat im lovin.
Ohh.. I love her shoe~
I kinda like this pic
He's adorable. :)

For a special friend of mine, MC

In case you are wondering what is this (which is pretty obvious that it's a MSN CHAT WINDOW), i just post it because:

1) MC dare me to do it.

2) To show how gay MC is.

3) To show emelia how lucky she is (If only she reads my blog)

To My Dear Emelia:

MC (in case you doesnt know who, it's Alvin Chua) really likes you alot. He's putting alot of effort in going after you (given the fact that he never really go after girls before) so please please appreciate of what he did because it's really coming out from his heart.

I understand you might not be ready for a relationship or still observing him, but do take note that the care and concern that he gives is genuine and not just purely out of infatuation.

For eg:

AL:"Eh, want to watch walking with dinosaur?"
MC:"You never ask me."
AL:"Want to watch nottttt?"
MC:"You never ask me."
AL:"You going meh? I thought you dont like dinosaur?"
MC:"Ya~"
AL:"THEN?"
MC:"Because i like her."

See. From this simple conversation, i guess you can tell how much he is into you. So my dear girl, take a step back and see this man's love for you. If you think he's worth, go for it. ;)

Love,

His Special BEP Friend - Angie

Alvin chua, I POST IT ALREADY. And of course the oh-i-so-feel-like-stranggling-you conversation. LOL! :D

Saint Nicklaus Day

Old Man told me that it's Saint Nicklaus Day today! So this is how it goes:

6th Dec is Saint Nicklaus Day and everyone has to say nice poems to Santa. You have to be a good kid, if not the bad kid will be packed into a bag and send to forrest!

So Santa will be standing there with a book before you. And you have to say a poem him for him. Like:

DEUTSCH
Text: Hoffmann von Fallersleben
(1850)
Morgen kommt der
Weihnachtsmann,
Kommt mit seinen Gaben.
Trommel, Pfeifen und Gewehr,
Fahn und Säbel und noch mehr,
Ja ein ganzes Kriegesheer,
Möcht' ich gerne haben.

Bring' uns,
lieber Weihnachtsmann,
Bring' auch morgen, bringe
Musketier und Grenadier,
Zottelbär und Panthertier,
Roß und Esel, Schaf und Stier,
Lauter schöne Dinge!

Doch du weißt ja unsern Wunsch,
Kennst ja unsre Herzen.
Kinder, Vater und Mama
Auch sogar der Großpapa,
Alle, alle sind wir da,
Warten dein mit Schmerzen.
(not too sure if this counts because it's like a song more than a poem)

Eng Ver:

Tomorrow
Santa’s coming,
Coming with his gifts.
Drum, pipes and gun,
Flag and saber and even more.
Yes, an entire army
I'd like to have.

Bring us,
dear Santa
Bring also tomorrow, bring
Musketeer and grenadier,
Shaggy bear and panther,
Steed and donkey, sheep and bull
Nothing but nice things!

But you know our every wish,
You know our hearts.
Children, father and mama
Even grandpa
We'll all, all be there
Painfully awaiting your arrival.

Songs from: http://www.aboutgerman.net/AGNlessons/christmas-morgen-kommt.htm

So once the little kid is done with this, Santa will take a book in front of the kid and review his/her whole year. (old man says normally there is no bad kids. Come'on who will do this to the kids right by telling them they are a bad kid for year 2010. )

So once the review is done, good kid will have a bag of chocolates with some peanuts and Ginger bread!

The little kid go home happily. :D

So, have you all been a good kid in year 2010?

*having chocolates with peanuts* LOL! :D

-Signing off, Athenlea

Empty Heart

Boohooo~

Mum and sis went HK again and as usual, im the maid/cleaner again. Need to clean the house for 5 days! :(

Alone again. Without Shishi. I dont mind to be alone seriously. But it makes me miss my shishi alot. Last time she will be sleeping by my side when nobody is at home. And now? What i got was an empty house with an empty heart.

I need accompany. I want someone to sleep with me. Yet there's no one.

It might sound that im riddiculous but wait till the one that has been sleeping with you for the past 9 years suddenly leave you.. You will know i am not riddiculous at all.

Right now, i can only hug myself to sleep. Good night everyone.

"My dear shishi, i know physically you are not with me but you will be watching me from above. I love you and miss you lots.."

Again, he saved my little ass

Had nightmare and I woke up at what, 5am?

Just dreamt of my sis telling me that she saw him holding hands with another girl. (ok, it doesn't consider as a nightmare but it actually woke me up. It's disturbing.)

The thing is, I don't like him, I don't love him, I don't miss him. But why do I have such strong reaction?

I told Jas that this week, i'm feeling a little emotional. Met MC and I was sobbing on his shoulder. He was nice enough to go through this with me at 1am in the morning after our oh-so-long Harry Potter date.

And what puts me to sleep was.. Him. My twinkle.

It's funny that I actually dreamt of him. It's been awhile.

I love how he always put me at ease. With him around, I always feel so secure. It's like he has this charm in him to let me feel that I can be a kid when I'm infront of him and one more thing, he's not agruementive. I hate conflicts, I hate agruements, I hate to feel the aching feeling in my heart.

So im not going to disclose the contents of my dream but I had a good long sleep. :)

Am off to be a kid with another kid to watch.. Walk with the Dinosaur!! :D

-Signing off, Athenlea

Location:Yishun Avenue 2,Singapore,Singapore

Spiritual Spa

Finally finish reading My Name Is Memory.

Am sitting along the bank of the Singapore river with a cuppa hot chocs. It's a small escape from the large noisy crowds in CBD area. It's a luxury. It's a spiritual spa treatment for my heart.

I love this spiritual spa. Alone time is good because it seems I feel happier. Or is that the effects that chocolate brings. Either way, I'm satisfied with it.

Looking around me are mostly lunch partners. A few tables of single woman just like me. Are they are just plain lonely or they having their spiritual spa as well?

I would rather believe in the latter.

I have dreamt of this before long ago. It's a deja vu. Which means I must have survived all those heartaches I have for this year. I would say it's an aching year. I had my cheap thrills, I learnt my lesson, I'm looking forward for next year to come. Whatever fate has plan for me, I'm ready to face it because now I know how to love my heart more.

Cheers everyone. *slipped a mouthful of hot chocs*

-Signing off, Athenlea

My Name is Memory

Am reading my name is memory by Ann Brashares. It's a book that says:" Sometimes love lasts more than a lifetime."

Normally people will just chuck this kind of books back to the shelf because it's kind of lovey dovey and kind of fairy tales.

But I bought it.

Because it tells me that when you love someone so much and it starts to hurt them, the best alternative is to stop falling in love with him and protect him from the heartbreak we knows will follow.

It's true.


-Signing off, Athenlea