Yes everyone, we have successfully walked into 2012. I celebrated with my girlies and it's quite an enjoyable session. Not much drinking, just chit chat and watch fireworks. Me like this way of welcoming 2012.
My new year resolution was to.. stop taking fags (as per beanie) and his new year resolution is to get in shape. lol.
How about you guys? What's your new year resolution? :)
Monday, January 2, 2012
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Torn
Im torn.
Im upset.
Im confused.
Im tired.
Everytime when im slightly disappointed, the feeling just feel so surreal that reminds myself why am i allowing people to disappoint me, why am i still not protecting myself, why am i that hostile, why am i so defensive.
I was never such a person and why am i displaying all those evil side to my poor Autumn. He's a poor boy that is taking all my nonsense. I am grateful to have someone to treat me like his most precious item, like his glass flower. Yet.. i couldnt explain why am i so demanding towards him.
Is it because Summer has really gave me so much insecurity and now im just living in a shell that i dont allow anyone that claim to love me to bully me anymore. Or im have not recover from the previous scar.
I seriously hate myself for being a bitch to my Autumn, because he dont deserve to tolerate this side of me. He deserves better. Where's the better me :(
Im upset.
Im confused.
Im tired.
Everytime when im slightly disappointed, the feeling just feel so surreal that reminds myself why am i allowing people to disappoint me, why am i still not protecting myself, why am i that hostile, why am i so defensive.
I was never such a person and why am i displaying all those evil side to my poor Autumn. He's a poor boy that is taking all my nonsense. I am grateful to have someone to treat me like his most precious item, like his glass flower. Yet.. i couldnt explain why am i so demanding towards him.
Is it because Summer has really gave me so much insecurity and now im just living in a shell that i dont allow anyone that claim to love me to bully me anymore. Or im have not recover from the previous scar.
I seriously hate myself for being a bitch to my Autumn, because he dont deserve to tolerate this side of me. He deserves better. Where's the better me :(
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
The once crazy young love
Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radio head
And on my 18th birthday we got that chain tattoos
Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never plan that one day I'd be losing you
And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in other life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away
I was dreaming you were my Johnny Cash
Never one, we got the other, we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on, whoa
Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the blues
It's time to face the music, I'm longer your muse
And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one, the one, the one
The one that got away
All these money can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't replace you with a million rings, no
I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa
'Cause now I pay the price
In another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one, the one, the one, the one
And in another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away
Immediately, this reminds me of my once crazy young love -> you. *sigh* :(
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Wow
I made a fool out of myself. I'm a fool.
Why only say you miss me when I'm gone.
Why only want to have a real heart to heart chat when I'm gone.
Why only when I'm gone, you realised you have missed one good girl out.
This is what we call - 犯贱.
-Signing off, Athenlea
Why only say you miss me when I'm gone.
Why only want to have a real heart to heart chat when I'm gone.
Why only when I'm gone, you realised you have missed one good girl out.
This is what we call - 犯贱.
-Signing off, Athenlea
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Looking back
Looking back at 2010, it's really a shitty year. A really uber duper shitty year. I'm so glad that it's over and done with. I don't even know how did I managed to live then. Partying, drinking, smoking was all I did, nothing is right. I do not wish to have such life again. Never ever.
2011 isn't really been kind to me only until now. I can't wait for December to arrive now. Because I'm counting down with someone special to my brand new year. :)
-Signing off, Athenlea
2011 isn't really been kind to me only until now. I can't wait for December to arrive now. Because I'm counting down with someone special to my brand new year. :)
-Signing off, Athenlea
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Something simple, something sweet
Someone that love you will:
- Bring you back to see his family during christmas.
- Does not want to hear anything about you dying.
- Protect you and make sure you are well taken care of if he leaves this world.
- Give in to you and let you lean on him like he's the pillar of your life.
- Trust you completely, give you freedom and respect what you are doing.
- Wont let you worry about anything.
- Treat you like his treasure.
This is what we call.. Love. :)
- Bring you back to see his family during christmas.
- Does not want to hear anything about you dying.
- Protect you and make sure you are well taken care of if he leaves this world.
- Give in to you and let you lean on him like he's the pillar of your life.
- Trust you completely, give you freedom and respect what you are doing.
- Wont let you worry about anything.
- Treat you like his treasure.
This is what we call.. Love. :)
