Happy 4th Anniversary bloggie. U have been wif me for 4 yrs n im still loving u dearly. Although ther r times wher i mite forget about you but i'll still come back to u no matter wat. U r always ther for me, ready for me to rant, ready for me to cry my hrt out. I'll cont to love u as long as the domain allows me too.
I love u my dear blog. *hugz*
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Cleaning up
Yup, deleted twinkle's pics away. I do not want anybody else to c at all. Those who has seen, lucky u. Tml is my anniversary for bloggin for 4 yrs. Yesh, 4 yrs consecutively bloggin. Wat a surprise. I always wonder hw long i can cont bloggin and guess wat, ive been bloggin for 4 yrs.
Definately dis is smting dat im happy abt but smtin makes me feel negative as well. Bcoz all my post is abt dat fellow. Which makes me feel dat hw can a love dat used to b so strong, dimished in thin air. All the sweet words dat ive document down, all the pics, all the emotions.. Juz served as memories nw.
Well, the standard phrase will be:"things happen for a reason."
I always wonder y i dun have a supermodel height, supermodel looks, blah blah blah. Juz a normal plain jane dat walks down the road everyday.
But... Im still happy. Bcoz, at least im normal, im healthy.
Smbody in this world prob dun mind the scar on the face so long she can c, so long she can speak. If you give ur love probs to a third world country ppl, they r more den happy to take it from you.
From the example above, u can tell dat hw lucky u r, hw fortunate dat you still have ur limps attached to ur bods, all ur senses is working.
So, compare to the love probs dat u r fussing over rite nw, u'll realise dat it's a trival matters. Ppl are fussing over food and we r fussing over smting luxury. Love is smting dat is gd to have but not a muz have. =)
Anyway, ive slimmed alil. Hmm.. I tink ive slimmed to a size dat im even slimmer 2yrs ago. LOLZ. Gd for me~ ;)
ok, i din put makeup n the face is alil.. hmmm. i noe. *boo*
Definately dis is smting dat im happy abt but smtin makes me feel negative as well. Bcoz all my post is abt dat fellow. Which makes me feel dat hw can a love dat used to b so strong, dimished in thin air. All the sweet words dat ive document down, all the pics, all the emotions.. Juz served as memories nw.
Well, the standard phrase will be:"things happen for a reason."
I always wonder y i dun have a supermodel height, supermodel looks, blah blah blah. Juz a normal plain jane dat walks down the road everyday.
But... Im still happy. Bcoz, at least im normal, im healthy.
Smbody in this world prob dun mind the scar on the face so long she can c, so long she can speak. If you give ur love probs to a third world country ppl, they r more den happy to take it from you.
From the example above, u can tell dat hw lucky u r, hw fortunate dat you still have ur limps attached to ur bods, all ur senses is working.
So, compare to the love probs dat u r fussing over rite nw, u'll realise dat it's a trival matters. Ppl are fussing over food and we r fussing over smting luxury. Love is smting dat is gd to have but not a muz have. =)
Anyway, ive slimmed alil. Hmm.. I tink ive slimmed to a size dat im even slimmer 2yrs ago. LOLZ. Gd for me~ ;)
ok, i din put makeup n the face is alil.. hmmm. i noe. *boo*
Airbrush and Inked
Days as usual. Was happy wen RG* winked at me. I was literally melting k. M-E-L-T. But dis happiness din last long wen i saw twinkle. He was passed me n we juz nod our head and he walk off. Wat a 180 degree change. As if the siamese twins has split into the individual human beings.. it's only less den a mth.
My heart, once again, hurts.
I told mike:"tattoo isnt as painful as hw i feel rite nw."
Mike says:"At least it's not permanent."
Which i agree on wat he says. It'll b over soon. Soon. Breathe on gal, u can do it!
This is RG. ;)
Ok, i noe ur gonna ask me y r we huggin tgt or wat.. But im not gonna tell. LOLZ. =P
"PF, listen up. U beta dun let twinkle heartache or make him sad. Im letting him go bcoz i love twinkle. I love dis guy and dat's y i shld b happy wen he found his happiness. Dun ever let me noe u did smting behind his back. I'll make sure u wun b dat pretty anymore. *roar*"
My heart, once again, hurts.
I told mike:"tattoo isnt as painful as hw i feel rite nw."
Mike says:"At least it's not permanent."
Which i agree on wat he says. It'll b over soon. Soon. Breathe on gal, u can do it!
This is RG. ;)
Ok, i noe ur gonna ask me y r we huggin tgt or wat.. But im not gonna tell. LOLZ. =P
"PF, listen up. U beta dun let twinkle heartache or make him sad. Im letting him go bcoz i love twinkle. I love dis guy and dat's y i shld b happy wen he found his happiness. Dun ever let me noe u did smting behind his back. I'll make sure u wun b dat pretty anymore. *roar*"
Friday, March 5, 2010
Shrek and B's gal
Yes, Shrek. Dis is the new name for twinkle. Bcoz the gal he likes call.. Nice. Ppl got couple name tgt. Wat abt me? Any character wif Angeline/ Angie/ Athenlea? NOPE. *boo*
Not talkin anymore means my hrt ache alil. It's like u noe he's ther yet u cant talk to him. I dun like dis feeling. *uber boo*
I got a new name call B's gal. Yeah~ B for butter and B for him. Coz his name starts wif B. HAIZ. It's time to go, it's time to go. It's time to let it go. *boo boo boo*
Not talkin anymore means my hrt ache alil. It's like u noe he's ther yet u cant talk to him. I dun like dis feeling. *uber boo*
I got a new name call B's gal. Yeah~ B for butter and B for him. Coz his name starts wif B. HAIZ. It's time to go, it's time to go. It's time to let it go. *boo boo boo*
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Rant!
Yesh, i wan to rant abt it! I wan to rant abt twinkle! "Stupid uncle, Stupid uncle , Stupid uncle , Stupid uncle!!"
Ppl hugggggggggggeed me till so tight u dun even care~ ARGH! Even if i tell u im not comfortable, U TELL ME DAT FELLOW IS NICE! =_= ARGH!
I noe dat fellow is drunk. BUT I DUNNO HIM AT ALL WAT.
Haiz, wateva. U dun like me for a tiny bit, dat's y u dun care or dun feel much. I cant fault u on dat too. But still.. ARGh!!!!
=( Hw i wish u'll care.. U can juz ask me whether im fine anot..
Ppl hugggggggggggeed me till so tight u dun even care~ ARGH! Even if i tell u im not comfortable, U TELL ME DAT FELLOW IS NICE! =_= ARGH!
I noe dat fellow is drunk. BUT I DUNNO HIM AT ALL WAT.
Haiz, wateva. U dun like me for a tiny bit, dat's y u dun care or dun feel much. I cant fault u on dat too. But still.. ARGh!!!!
=( Hw i wish u'll care.. U can juz ask me whether im fine anot..
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Should i leave
The Waltz - Silje Nergaard
Strike up the band let it play
Love songs to haunt me and I will stay
But when it comes to a waltz
Both words and music will ring false
For you waltzed in and spun my world
Around in dizzy dance I swirled
But suddenly you waltzed away from me
Those violins, they must go
So no careless hand with a bow
May play on the strings of my heart
And make me remember how lovers part
How you waltzed in and spun my world
Around in dizzy dance I swirled
But suddenly you waltzed away from me
Strike up the band let it play
Whatever it chooses and I will say
Play me a waltz if you will
I'll sit here and listen waiting until
My love returns to take my world
And spin it round in dizzy swirl
Where girl loves boy and boy loves girl
And feet don't touch the ground
I always hear this song when im upset. Dis song.. juz desc hw i feel.
I should leave dun i. I should juz tell myself he's juz sm one who do not wan to risk friendship, sm one whois nice to everybody, sm one who will nv be my sm one.
Great, nw i juz sound like a moaning love idiot dat moan when i brought all dis to myself. Y cant i juz simply treat him as a fren. Y cant i. N like wat he says, it's not a life and death matter so it shld b easier. Haiz. Prob it'll b easier if he din walk in deep. But.. he juz walk alil far too deep nw.
"How you waltzed in and spun my world Around in dizzy dance I swirled But suddenly you waltzed away from me "
Strike up the band let it play
Love songs to haunt me and I will stay
But when it comes to a waltz
Both words and music will ring false
For you waltzed in and spun my world
Around in dizzy dance I swirled
But suddenly you waltzed away from me
Those violins, they must go
So no careless hand with a bow
May play on the strings of my heart
And make me remember how lovers part
How you waltzed in and spun my world
Around in dizzy dance I swirled
But suddenly you waltzed away from me
Strike up the band let it play
Whatever it chooses and I will say
Play me a waltz if you will
I'll sit here and listen waiting until
My love returns to take my world
And spin it round in dizzy swirl
Where girl loves boy and boy loves girl
And feet don't touch the ground
I always hear this song when im upset. Dis song.. juz desc hw i feel.
I should leave dun i. I should juz tell myself he's juz sm one who do not wan to risk friendship, sm one whois nice to everybody, sm one who will nv be my sm one.
Great, nw i juz sound like a moaning love idiot dat moan when i brought all dis to myself. Y cant i juz simply treat him as a fren. Y cant i. N like wat he says, it's not a life and death matter so it shld b easier. Haiz. Prob it'll b easier if he din walk in deep. But.. he juz walk alil far too deep nw.
"How you waltzed in and spun my world Around in dizzy dance I swirled But suddenly you waltzed away from me "
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
have you ever seen the rain
Dis song was in my head round and round. Xday was a happy day coz.. I feel happy! Alot of happy things happens~ *sweet*
But dis morning i feel alil heavy. Twinkle posted dis:
"An action translate a reaction. A reaction desires an expectation which often not leads to dissatisfaction which equals miscommunication. If it isn't about life and death, take it a lil easier. Life is much more than tat. Juz look around, at e people who care, the things they did or will do fer u when it matters... Now, that's taking things fer granted :)"
Dat's not the usual him. V rarely he will post such stuff. Well, as i mentioned b4, he is always ther for his frens. Which of coz i believes his frens love him as well. I dunno wat happen to trigger dis post but ive asked him whether he's fine or not.
He say he's fine and i guess i shall not doubt any of it. He dun confide to me anw. But i feel like telling him dat i'll always b available to lend a listening ears even it's 3 or 4 am in the nite. Afterall, he is ther for me wen times are tough.
"FYI, im always here.."
But dis morning i feel alil heavy. Twinkle posted dis:
"An action translate a reaction. A reaction desires an expectation which often not leads to dissatisfaction which equals miscommunication. If it isn't about life and death, take it a lil easier. Life is much more than tat. Juz look around, at e people who care, the things they did or will do fer u when it matters... Now, that's taking things fer granted :)"
Dat's not the usual him. V rarely he will post such stuff. Well, as i mentioned b4, he is always ther for his frens. Which of coz i believes his frens love him as well. I dunno wat happen to trigger dis post but ive asked him whether he's fine or not.
He say he's fine and i guess i shall not doubt any of it. He dun confide to me anw. But i feel like telling him dat i'll always b available to lend a listening ears even it's 3 or 4 am in the nite. Afterall, he is ther for me wen times are tough.
"FYI, im always here.."
